1.12.06
Ahh I just realised the long long post I typed yesterday didn't get published! Anyway heck. I don't really feel the urge to blog these day. And I think that people should never discuss stuff about china or taiwan or attempt to speak some cheem chinese sentence in front of me! It's very demoralising okay, I don't understand a single thing you all were talking about )= And elaine still bothered to ask me how many tang ci's I can memorise. Like I can even memorise one like that.

I should really be doing something this holiday instead of wasting my time away but I don't know what I should do. raah. And everything I'm attempting to download keeps getting cut off halfway.

But maybe it's good to have so much spare time as well. It really makes you look back on things that have happened this year, and I suddenly remembered this.
I know it's my fault. If only I had made good use of that chance to really get to know you well. Unfortunately I had thought that I knew you well enough, that I really didn't need to put in anymore effort, and I guess that's part of the reason why things have ended up like that. We'll move on and pretend that nothing went wrong, that we were so close to being perfect, but I guess that punctured hole of regret can never really be filled up.

And when I have the courage, I'll go up and say sorry to you. It may be too late, but it's still better than not doing anything. When will I have the courage though? I have no idea.
Friday, December 01, 2006

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